here's the most important lesson i've learned about going dairy free -- it affects other people too. it's not just about me. it's about making choices of where to share a meal with people who are not afflicted with lactose intolerance but, because they want to hang out with me, or if i'm lucky, because they love me, they will forgo hitting up the city's awesome pizza joint to go to a generic place with a friendlier menu. it's restricting, having to scan menus and ingredient lists. it's something i know will get easier, will probably become second nature, but until i reach that point, i find myself sighing in exasperation. i also find myself feeling guilty.
because it's affected grocery shopping. it's affected traditional baking. traditional buttercream icing is now wrecking havoc as i try to figure out alternative ingredients for the butter and cream. it just never occured me exactly how much i relied on milk and butter to make the ultimate cakes and cookies, how friggin delicious cream cheese icing is and god help me, how difficult it has been for me to accept that i probably can never have cookies dunked in milk again.
take a moment. let that sink in.
i realize it's not the end of the world. this is what one would call a First World Problem. regardless, it's a been an adjustment. and it will be for the most part, a Lifestyle.
i made these fig newtons some time ago, using fresh picked figs. i can't say that i especially loved the dough, it was hard. i wonder if the 2.5 cups of flour it calls for is too much? in lieu of the butter, i used chilled coconut oil and for the tablespoon of cream, i used coconut milk. i will attempt this again, tho with a different seasonal fruit, probably apples.
we've been snacking on these for a week now... i bring a few in to work to nibble on while i sip my tea and dw had a couple last night while he watched tv. it's not the same as the fig newtons i grew up with and truth be told, i did find some that were dairy free at the co-op (thanks paul newman, rip.) it's just nice to be able to make some beloved treats, my way.